I know you’re left and I am so far right I walk in shadows and you live in light I’m more than sure I need you by my side. - Rocky Nti (The Start) http://www.facebook.com/Rockyntimusic?sk=app_178091127385 Seriously, I have no like, followers I don’t know, but get this link out there!
“how much did I borrow from you Matt?” “idk, £1.20?” “here’s £2…” “thanks” “…we bought the girls something from pandora” Okay thanks for the 80p present guys.. Reallllly fair.
So I’m sat here on one side of my door, my cousin on the other, both crying. Well I say cousin, she’s more like my sister I never had. and I feel so fucking awful. She can read me like a book, and idk if I like that or not, I’ve never opened up fully to anyone, the person I opened to the most, just fucking left. I know I have bestfriends, but I wont open up to them,...
I want to run away, fuck all this shit I’m feeling. I’m fed up of feeling like a cunt all day..
now everyone has changed their mind about tonight. and now it all seems to be my fault, why do I always get the blame for peoples mind change…?
im-so-high-so-i asked: <3 you bro.
Right, I’m one of those fucking emotional moods where everything in my head comes out in one second… I FUCKING MISS THE HAPPINESS WE CREATED AND THE HAPPINESS WE SHARED. Yes it all happened so quickly, but it all happened for a reason, a reason that felt so right. And it all got rushed away so quickly, I hate that I no longer have you, that I can no longer talk to you in the way that...
tellyourmumisayhey asked: Fast and Furious 5=epic jizz <3
Right now, I’m still fucking angry. The anger that enters me when I see you, is inexplainable, seriously.
I had myself a princess once..
It’s always sick when your parents are arguing when you get in. Seeing your mum in tears is not the one.
“I like your ceiling Matt…” A quote I shall never forget.
I’m under a constant grilling from my family, like I’m expected to answer to everyone and every beck and call I’m expected to do. I’ve told you enough times I don’t talk to anyone, yet you’ll constantly ask what’s up, please take the fucking hint. I want a holiday, or just to get out of MK for a couple of months. New start, needed.
How pathetic am I...
I don’t even want to go to the city until you’re gone, I’m scared I’m going to see you, and just crumble in front of everyone. I honestly can’t explain what goes on in my mind anymore. I’m a fucking mess.
Literally feel so small. Worthless. And I can’t do one thing right. And I think I’ve lost my mind… a) I’m in debt at the tender age of 18. How pathetic is that? I mean, its not even my fault. So now I’ve spent like my months wages, on their fucking mistake. b) I still haven’t got a clue what this ‘family life’ has in store for me. One moment...
everything’s getting to me now, little and pathetic things, anyone that says anything that annoys me, yes I will bite your head off, and no, right now I don’t care. So just stay the fuck away from me..
Don’t you just love getting paid, and then the same day, £100 gets paid off to the debt company, yay for being in debt and threatened to be taken to court at 18… Bye bye chances of ever getting a loan.
I wish for one day, you could miss me, and me not give a fuck. Just so you feel how fucking awful I do everyday..
we should’ve watched the notebook instead of the pursuit of happyness… maybe things might of turned out different.
pretty much burnt all the bridges now. bye bye attempt at salvation of a friendship. :-(
I’m not too sure if you think I’m joking or not, but I will kill you if you put one foot wrong.
How comes I’m out of your head, but I can’t stop thinking about you…
livlovlavluv: i have been over and over all this in my head and still i don’t understand what went wrong. all i do is think now, constantly.
So the ‘girl in the gym’ decides to do work outs on the surrounding equipment around me. Wearing the shortest shorts ever. I look up at her on the treadmill, and she’s looking at me, it was one of those awkward, “I know you’re looking at me, but I’m looking at you too” kinda moments. And then she disappeared, weird.
I think I
livlovlavluv: could sit here waiting forever :/ I’ll wait with you, if you get in some alcohol, some ice cream, and we watch the OC 24-7 …
You know when you get to know a girl; - you used to see them everyday - be in eachothers lessons. - come up with names for eachother over something ridiculous, like say…. a kids tv program. - you borrow money from them, and pay them back without fail. - and you’re both pretty moody and that at the same time… Makes you realise, why the fuck did we stop talking all that...
I loaded earlier messages and tried to see when I first text you, but it took me half an hour to get to the 27th March, if only I could use your texts as proof that maybe, you should give us the chance to at least be friends..
Girls who leave the gym all like; are pretty sweet.
“You can only depend on yourself, the cavalry aint coming” - Chris Gardner
“He bumps first, and asks questions later..” I’ve never giggled so hard at a cbeebies program :’-)
Still don’t understand relationships. If you want someone so bad, you’ll have them no matter what. You don’t need the security of having a title, being a boyfriend or being a girlfriend. Fair enough some people like the ‘security’ and some people use it for popularity. If there’s someone that means that much to you, you don’t care if they don’t...